I strongly believe that the most destructive blockage on our path to wellness is self depreciation. A couple years ago, as my meditation practice was deepening, I became acutely aware that guiltacted as of the most pre-dominant energies guiding my thoughts, practice and life choices. And it was not guilt over a particular incident or mistake made. I have had that also and it is usually an emotion that guides me to apologize or change a course of action and then I return to equilibrium. No, what I was discovering was more like a heavy, thick entrenchment that left a deep part of me feeling like I needed to apologize for who I was. It can leave me in a nervous state of making sure others are happy and approve of me, my thoughts, my beliefs, rather than trusting where my own wise guidance leads me. I have come to recognize it quickly now when it descends and luckily I have learned some tools to help shift back into remembering the joy I have discovered in being me. To shift back into remembering that it is not only ok, but amazingly helpful for everyone, for me to make choices that feel good to me, to honor my truth, and to unapologetically accept all of the blessings that come my way.
Are you ready to step out of guilt, self depreciation, and pain, and claim your worth and your power? Try this simple meditation for only 11 minutes a day.
Meditation to Conquer Self Animosity
1) Tune in by chanting Ong Namo Guru Dev Namo three times.
2) Mudra: Elbows rest comfortably by your side with your hands at heart level. Make the hands into fists with both thumbs pulled back towards heart.
3) Eyes: Both eyes are barely open (1/8 open) with a soft gaze towards the tip of your nose. (This will feel really strange at first, but stick with it! Helps to activate pituitary gland and the meditative mind)
4) Breath : Deeply inhale through the nose. Exhale slowly through the mouth. Then, inhale through the mouth and exhale through the nose. Continue with this pattern.
5) Begin with three minutes and gradually build up to eleven minutes. This is a short meditation but to truly see the benefits, it needs to be done daily. My teacher recommended me to do it every day for at least six months! If that seems too long, try forty days in a row!
Yogi Bhajan's comments on meditation:
There are no enemies. There are challenges to our creativity. The greatest enemy is the self. Self-defeating activity and self-animosity occur where we do not accept ourselves. We instinctively reject self-confirmed continuity. We will oppose our own success and accomplishment just to break with steadiness. That break is the assertion of ego: an attempt at marking and possessing something in Time and Space. This self-animosity distracts us from the real gift of human life: the capacity to confront and experience the self in relationship to the Unknown Infinity of our Self. This meditation conquers the state of self-animosity and gives you the ability for constant consciousness in support of the core self.
Good luck and let me know how it goes for you!